Saturday 5 November 2016

The train that never comes

Bottle up, bottle up
all your guts and
all your pretty dreams
Put on hold
your now.

An abandoned train station
that I pass by every day
stares into me.
Like me, it lies
in stagnation
until eventual
annihialtion.

The train tracks are littered
I cross them,
looking left, right
for a train to come
But never have I seen one
Stagnation
until eventual
annihilation.

"Sleep is for the dead" they say
Good, at least there's that
Sleep sleep sleep
Stagnation stagnation stagnation
All frantic movements ceased
This bubble will know no bullet.
Hug the bottle
and sleep sleep sleep, so peacefully.

The way home is always painful.
Sometimes at 2 am
Your knees are your best friends.

Darkness. Light. Death. Sleep sleep sleep. Darkness. Light.
Darkness. Light. Death. Sleep sleep sleep. Darkness. Light.
Darkness. Light. Death. Sleep sleep sleep. Darkness. Light.

Turn the keys.
Hello, darkness
you were never my friend.
Why don't you get the fuck out?

How much of yourself is yourself?
How much have you been othered?
You wanted to escape
but you are good for nothing
You can't even stand up for your own damn self.
You good for nothing.
You deceiver.
You are a lie.

Darkness. Light. Death. Sleep sleep sleep. Darkness. Darkness. Darkness.

_________

"Think for yourself you know what you need in this life
See for yourself and feel your soul come alive tonight
Here in the moment we share
Trembling between the worlds we stare
out at starlight enshrined, veiled like diamonds in..

...time can be the answer, take a chance, lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make
To create love and to fall
So rise and be your master you don't need to be a slave
of memory ensnared in a web, in a cage."
-- A Simple Mistake, Anathema

(c) Na Kim